My Vegan Journey to Health, Higher Self Esteem and Lower Body Fat

DAY THREE (scroll down for day one)
1. I am grateful for surviving day two and being able to feel my pelvic bones! The bloat is going away. No headache today :)

2. What I wish for today: Calm, Healing
3. Food Log:
*Poptart
*Muskadimes, lots through-out the day. Love them!!
*Banana
*Watermelon

4. My plans for tomorrow: Meditation. Rest. Salad for lunch. Grocery Store
5. Exercise Log: Taking week off
6. What made me happy today? Confidence. Byron's home. Peaceful day.

8. Today's challenges? Breakfast (This seems to be a trouble spot, my cravings are bad in the am). I must recognize and prepare.
9. Changes for tomorrow? I must watch myself when it comes to food in the mornings!
10. In the news today? I have no idea!
11. Todays weather? Pleasant
12. Plans for tomorrow? Shopping, blogging, journaling, football
13. Other? I had to take Allegra D & Pristiq
14. From the 19 elements of health, what were my weak points today? Pure wholesome food.
14b. How can I improve on this tomorrow? I don't think I am eating enough, but I am just not hungry. I am trying to listen to my body.

16. Challenges: Caffeine and Processed foods. Mindless eating.

18. Things I am looking forward to: New Clothes.
19. Changes I will make:
20. Things that are bothering me - way to fix them? I am still fighting anxiety when it comes to food. I have got to find a way to break through these issues. Why am I anxious? Why do I feel deprived?

Other: Constipation better. I am tired at around 8pm every night but then wide awake 1-3am. This is causing me to be very sleepy in the mornings (hence the bad food choice, maybe?).



DAY TWO (scroll down for day one)
1. I am grateful for surviving day one and losing 2.2 pounds

2. What I wish for today: Calm, Healing
3. Food Log:
*Muskadimes, lots through-out the day. Love them!!
*Strawberry & Banana Smoothie
*Water, Water, Water

4. My plans for tomorrow: AC repair here in AM. Meditation. Rest. Salad for lunch.
5. Exercise Log: Taking week off
6. What made me happy today? 2.2 lbs gone. Confidence. Football practice cancelled!

8. Today's challenges? Max's left-over breakfast. The little bugger wanted waffles for breakfast, so I made him waffles and then he only ate fruit! WTF? So, I ended up having a bite of his waffle and then threw them it the trash. Uuugh!
9. Changes for tomorrow? I must watch myself when it comes to Max's left over food.
10. In the news today? I have no idea!
11. Todays weather? Pleasant
12. Plans for tomorrow? Just AC repair man, blogging, journaling.
13. Other? I had to take Allegra D, Pristiq & Zomig (both headache meds). I really need to find a way to get off these drugs.
14. From the 19 elements of health, what were my weak points today? Pure wholesome food.
14b. How can I improve on this tomorrow? I don't think I am eating enough, but I am just not hungry. I am trying to listen to my body.

16. Challenges: Temptations from Max.

18. Things I am looking forward to: New Clothes.
19. Changes I will make:
20. Things that are bothering me - way to fix them? I am still fighting anxiety when it comes to food. I have got to find a way to break through these issues. Why am I anxious? Why do I feel deprived?

Other: Headache today :( I feel good now. Headache gone. However, I am very tired. I don't know if it is detox or meds. I have also been constipated, which could be the Allegra D.


DAY ONE
I wish my desire for going Vegan was more than that for health and vanity reasons. Then, maybe I could stay motivated longer. If I was saving mother earth, cows or whatever non vegans destroys I think my convictions would keep me on track and my goals achieved. Unfortunately, I am not that deep. I am however fat, sluggish, have low self-esteem and suffering from a slew of irritating health issues (none too serious but I am sure the other "big ones" are just around the corner). I also don't trust the food industry and believe that America's growing waist line and increase in health issues can be partially blamed on the food being labeled and served to us.

So, here I go. One-step-at-a-time.

The following books have helped me in my decision to go Raw (Oh, yea did I mention I was going RAW VEGAN?):


The next 30 days will be about my emotional journey in RAW. I am using the following workbook to guide my transformation: http://www.scribd.com/doc/17640579/Workbook

DAY 1
1. I am grateful for having time to myself today, Max, Byron, my relationship with my Mom & my blog job (the one that pays).

2. What I wish for today: to be successful in Vegan eating, take before pictures, start blog journal, meal planning, re-read goals, drink lots of water and listen to meditation tapes.

3. Food Log:
*10:30am, slight physical hunger but more of a feeling that "I should eat because it's morning", 1 banana w/ 1 T NB, eaten in kitchen, Not really hungry, satisfied.
*1:30pm, physical hunger, cantaloupe (not sure how much), eaten in kitchen, satisfied
*6:30pm, hunger maybe boredom, muskadime grapes, ate a ton, kitchen, satisfied
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4. My plans for tomorrow: Meal planning, buy more fruit, football practice
5. Exercise Log: Taking week off
6. What made me happy today? Spending time for myself
7. What was I grateful for? my family
8. Today's challenges? I always feel a little panicky when I tell myself I am not going to eat certain foods. I have this anxiety feeling and I am not sure how to put it into words. I will explore more on this because I believe it pays a major role in my emotional battle with food.
9. Changes for tomorrow? Water+
10. In the news today? LA Fires, kidnapping
11. Todays weather? Pleasant
12. Plans for tomorrow? Same as today. AC repair man coming (stress $$)

13. Other? I took Allegra D today for allergies to (weed pollen). This has altered my appetite.

14. From the 19 elements of health, what were my weak points today? Pure wholesome food, exercise, sunshine on our bodies, motivation.
14b. How can I improve on this tomorrow?

16. Challenges: to not feel deprived, enjoy the journey

18. Things I am looking forward to:
19. Changes I will make:
20. Things that are bothering me - way to fix them?

Other: I was completely exhausted tonight. I listened to my meditation tapes and feel sound asleep in the middle. I am wide awake at 1am. SUCK! I feel the detox has already started--like the body knows. I am very weary of headaches and am praying I do not get a bad migraine. However, I am cold turkey on the caffeine. So, this could hurt!

Tomorrow will be a little more challenging: Cravings will start, detox will intensify. I have to start making smoothies to drink. I just can't seem to find my groove. I hate trial and error. My challenge tomorrow will also be with getting Max fed before football practice and making myself a smoothie to drink during. I hope this will be fulfilling enough to keep me from snacking (or grazing!). I still have lots of muskadimes to keep my busy! I have to figue out how to spell that word.




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1 comment:

Alison said...

how was it??? it felt good to have accomplished it today. only had 2 times where i would have cheated (an unfinished doughnut and cookie) but I stayed clean. i can tell my the amount of oil on my face. off to do my blog.